well hello hello hello.
Assalamualaikum.

It has been quite some time. Long time. way too long. Ive forgotten about this blog. I used to post loads of things here. Some very awesome stories..and some..well. I cant say Im proud with some. So yeah, no more bitchy, lifes-being-unfair kind of post anymore! 

Ive got some big news for those who havent heard/noticed.
I am now engaged :)

But dont worry. I am still me. I am thankful, sangat bersyukur that I have met someone very different yet very similar. I know that doesnt make any sense but thats what it is. we're different in lots of ways but we share and love similar things in life.  

This is like a new chapter in our interesting-lengthy book! This my engagement chapter is more like an extreme wedding prep. rather than the engagement itself since the wedding is not too far from now.

In.a.month.time

Pretty scary. yes? no?
Help?

Its not just me doing something that I love (bake and eat).

Its not just the business.

not just the money

not the free time

Its cos I gotta do this, share this, and work with the person that I love being around with most.

Thats Loova for me :)

Thank you Fariz Hanapiah.

~~

Loova

facebook.com/wantsomeloova

twitter.com/loovame

dearloova@gmail.com

"We were right behind you.. until you threw everyone under the bus."

So do not talk about friendship - if you dont know the meaning of it.

In the end, people question why you're alone.

Hmph!

I guess I'm watching too much of The Apprentice , The Amazing Race...

and mostly Survivor.

p.s Selamat Berpuasa

Its been repeated over and over again. yet people are still ignorant. they utter words that they are not supposed to. why la laik dat one?

Karma is a bitch.

So beware of how you treat others. What you do to people, you'll get back the same. Stay away from dramas. Appreciate the people around you coz otherwise, they might not love you the same way as before. by the time you crawl back begging for forgiveness, it might be too late and things will never be the same again. and geez..open your eyes, not everyone is a friend.

nobody is perfect. and so are you. and me too.

this isnt high school anymore. this is another phase of life that you should cherish.

reflect who you truly are, blend well with the people and the environment.

tak semua boleh terima diri kita ni. find out why, make actions about it.

with that, on my next post. i'll try figure out what I dont like about myself, what people might not like about me and what can I do to change that.

I would like to RP (repost) this.

This is taken from my old blog - an entry almost 3 years ago.

a little piece of sincerity

i would rather live in my own fantasy than the reality.

reality has been too harsh for me to cope up with

its a place of irony, skepticism & deception

i miss the past. i enjoy the present. im afraid of the future

but then again

those around me are enough for me to love the present.

thank you.

theyre trying so hard to be sarcastic (and give good comebacks)

but still plain boring, uninteresting and uhmmm

ha i dont even know.

haha

children.

might as well just ignore em.

so anyways

life is full of surprises.

and randomness.

well not life in general

but life lately.

at least i had that this weekend.

its not entirely a happy ride on the weekends but its different and selamba badak :)

thanks for the roller coaster ride. and the rm300 saman. haha

there is one part of me who cant wait to get the hell out of here.

and that is why, melbourne plan seems like a perfect gateway.

new environment, new people, new life perhaps.

there is another part of me that says i could not.

where else in the world can i find friends like Boy, Shee, Neera, Nue etc?

who i can share everything with.

and that i can trust.

also.. being far away from my family is another big thing.

i tend to keep my feelings to myself and not let it loose for ppl to know & see

dengan kata lain, ego kot.

sedih tapi tak nak mengaku

konon macho tapi sebenarnya tahpape je tu.

marah bila dirindui tapi sebenarnya terharu & tanak sedih je bila tau ade org rindu

cewah.

tapi tula. this is one opportunity to really be susah and learn from something out of it.

asik hidup ok ok je nanti sampai ke tua mengharap semuanya berjalan lancar

padahal byk lagi bende kene belajar dalam kehidupan ni

so.

this is it!

kalau ade rezeki, ke melbourne lah kami :)

kalau takde rezeki, kene cari plan lain.

first! i need to membetulkan diri sendiri dahulu. banyak bende kene buat dari sekarang.

its a journey to make life even more interesting

dah lama tak blog..

ok.. so..

my current thoughts on..

life.
i think everyone is in the same situation now.
we're all confused, scared, pressured.
when i feel that life is being unfair to me, i tend to forget that life is being unfair to each and everyone of us. from all walks of life. you him me her them.

its how you deal with it is different.
ive been in some shitty moment of my life. its hard. its super hard.
but i got tired of staying on the ground waiting for help.

(u know, u could have used the time to watch Konsert Akademi Fantasia or something)

jk!


being 23 nanti.
for me, its not just adding another year to your age.
its more than that.
so yeah, im pretty scared. as i do not act my age at all.
what can i do?

"be who you potentially are"

mcm Nick Season12 Survivor ckp

:D

relationship.
a nice easy going relationship is actually safer
than making a pact on everything.
this should be natural not forced.
and do not wish for it.
if you do, you'll be blinded by love.

take it easy guys.
play it safe.
kalau tak jumpa sekarang, nanti2 ade la tu.
jangan pressure :P (referring to my two guy friends - identiti tidak boleh ckp kat sini)

future.
i cant see the future.
i cant expect too many things
i just can hope.

manchester united

i still believe. ^^

friends.

i do not have many close friends.

not cos i chose not to

its just hard for me to open up to just anybody.

(and i am not likeable :P)

but

if i tell you everything

you're really special.

hahaha.

if i act stupid, perangai mcm bdk2 ke ape

or even tiba2 jadi hantu. (lol)

you're special too.

if im not special to you

takpe.

asalkan i can still be myself with you.

haha.

its sad when you expect too much.

like when you expect some people not to do something just cos someone else might get their feelings hurt.

like when B would expect A to understand why B behaves such way

because B would think A might at least try to be on his/her shoes

like when D expects that one day.. they would finally meet

like when F expects his/her friends would understand such basic friendship do's and donts

well expecting,.. believing that it would happen

sucks.

as someone said to me

dont expect. just hope.

at least hoping would lasts forever. if theres still hope, there is a chance

expecting on the other hand..

can be gone in a second...

when you stopped believing in something.

when in doubt follow your heart, it never lies - @paulvharris